When You Feel Stuck

I feel like I am always holding myself back. I easily get jealous of other’s successes. I get so down on myself when things don’t turn out, or when I don’t follow through.

I don’t understand how things come together for so many people, but I feel as though I am stuck in the same mud I haven’t been able to move out of for years.

This mud feels like it will never go away - even though I know it’ll lessen — eventually.

I feel overwhelmed. And then I create the same narrative over and over - that this mud is where I stay, and I won’t get out no matter what I do.

But this mud is just a part of where I am at/where I have been. And I know this mud can be cleared. It has to be possible no matter how thick I feel it coats my life.

My current, negative self tells me it won’t disappear - but my future/optimistic self is, like, uh yeah, you’ll be fine - you stress too much.

Part of that stress is not feeling like I am growing fast enough because I feel like I “should” be farther ahead. And that comes from feeling not good enough.

So I know I have a lot of mental work to do. And sometimes I don’t feel entirely hopeful, but something always pushes me to keep going regardless. Even though I do feel some progress writing this blog post… My soul needed to get this out, so I am listening to my soul. And we shall see what happens…